When I became a follower of Jesus, I enlisted in a war. The war is against my flesh and the evil that surrounds me. The enemy is constantly trying to get me to blame God or give up on serving God.
My flesh wants me to go one way and my spirit wants me to go in the way of truth. Sometimes, It seems as though I am on a playground. But I have learned that I must fight the good fight of faith and stay in the battle on the winning side where God is. You to must Fight The Good Fight until the end no matter what.